last night

So last night Gabriel kept waking up right as I was trying to put him back down. He was NOT interested in sleeping and just kept looking at me with those huge blue eyes that take up most of his tiny face. Even in my exhausted sleep deprived state while I sat up with him I had an epiphany.
My epiphany was this. I have been all upset about this bells palsy, and the WAY worse stretch marks than I had with Elise, and just feeling fat and lumpy and in general unattractive in every way but as I looked in to those sweet innocent adoring eyes it occurred to me that he is sooooooooooooo worth it. I whined about having him with no pain meds and all the complications and trouble I had with the pregnancy but if I had to do it all over again I would, and I guess that is obvious because I had another after Elise. With Elise I puked EVERYTHING I ate up for the first month and after that I puked 4 times a day every day for at least 3 months but she is so precious and she brightens my day so much that I did it again.
My dad told me the other day about an interview he had seen with Jillian Michaels ( she is the mean girl trainer from Biggest Looser) and she had said that she is never having kids cause she is afraid she will loose her awesome body and never get it back. But the thing she isnt realizing (beside how incredibly selfish she is) is that she wont have that body forever anyway and when the "hot" body is gone she will be alone and not have any children. I have yet to find anything that I love so much in the world as my children I just feel sorry for people who are to selfish to appreciate the children they have or to selfish to have them they dont know what they are missing. I feel even more sorry for the people who want to have children and cant and they know (as much as you can know without having them) what they are missing.People who have abortions just dont realize what an increadible gift they are throwing away, destroying and murdering.
The greatest feeling in the world is when my daughter wakes me up in the morning with a hug and a kiss and a " I wub you mommy" or when she greats me at the door after I've been gone with a " mommy!" and a big hug and a " I missed you mommy" Or when my son cries until it is ME that holds him and he then starts his favorite activity looking at me with this " I am in love" look and holding my hand. Nobody will ever love you like your child.

New Elise sayings

Elise came and woke me up this morning and said " mommy I sweeped all night!" Super exciting because I dont think she has done that since the beginning of the year. Then she said " Nook mommy, I sweet today!" I hope that is true that'll be nice. She also came and showed me her baby doll she had taken a red crayon and marked two marks on its face then said " oh no mommy da baby scwatched her face!" I guess she is trying to imitate things her brother does except with her baby doll. lol

Gabriel

I have seriously gotta start updating this more often. But this time it is about my new little boy. I know I whined and complained constantly about "will this kid ever come out" but actually he came out sooner than Elise did. Last Thursday morning I woke up hurting but didnt think anything about it cause I had already been to the hospital 4 times and was sent home. I didnt do this cause I enjoy being tortured in the hospital but because the doctor told me if you hurt at all to go in cause 2nd babies come faster and you are already part way there. So I just wrote the pain off. Except it got really really really bad and I started getting not very fun to be around.
When we finally got to the hospital ( of course we seriously hit EVERY red light on the way) we were there for less than an hour, no time to get an epidural or any pain meds and out he came. How people have been having babies for so long without drugs I dont know. And he was only 6 pounds 12 ounces! I had a friend have her baby the next day and that kid was 8 pounds 5 ounces! Anyways.... but even through all this trouble and the dumb bells palsy I acquired while preggers and all the uncertainty I had about having a boy ( I seriously know NOTHING about boys. Only boy baby sitting experience was with my nephew and that kid is enough to make anybody not want to have kids.)
I wouldnt trade Gabriel for anything. He is the tiniest snuggerliest little thing ever. If he is awake he doesn't want to be put down he wants to be snuggling. If he is in the bed with me and i have him about 6 inches away from me he will grunt and whimper and scoot till he is right up under me then snuggle in close, smile and sleep happily. He reminds me of Nathan. Nathan is 22 and still wants to sit right on top of you almost. Gabriel also sleeps better than Elise does. The other night after being awakened many times by Elise, Josh commented " do you realize that the 3 year old has woken us up more than the new born? Something is wrong"
Elise is very concerned about him already. We had to take him to the hospital to get his billy reuben tested a few days after he was born and when they poked his heal Elise got all upset. When we gave him his first at home bath yesterday and he screamed the whole time Elise cried for him too. When he is upset she will sing to him. She wants to " pet her" all the time and we have to keep telling her he is a he. Anyways I know this is the most random rambling post ever but give me a break im sleep deprived and this is the first chance ive had to put the baby down all day because he is finally asleep and Elise is being quiet enough to keep him that way.